Some Empathy, Compassion and Understanding Would Really Be Nice, I Could Really Truly Use Some HELP and SUPPORT Right NOW!
I am a #disabled man living in #poverty, my #disability is 60% physical and 40% mental, and as I get older, both of those are increasingly hard to deal with, each day I try to do what I can where I live, as part of my rent is to help out when and as I can, but that is getting harder and harder to do, I am spent, between losing what little strength and physical ability I have left and not getting decent sleep nor having a decent diet, things just keep getting harder, and that causes my #anxiety to get worse which causes my #bipolar to cycle, which causes more lack of sleep, and I am in constant pain, and on and on it goes, at 47 years old I sure wish people could see the value in helping me #fundraise $5million dollars so that I can buy my own property and build my forever home, and have everything I need to never have to worry again, and to alleviate the stress of my day to day situation, and so I can really just age at a pace that wont effect anyone or anything, because in my own home, if I cant or dont feel like it I dont have to do anything for days, weeks, or months at a time and no one can get mad at me. People seem to forget that I am disabled and they dont realize I am getting older, nor do they comprehend that I simply cant afford #food to eat 3 meals a day, often not even one meal a day, that I have no #healthcare, people in general expect me to just keep going like the energizer bunny, when the reality is I am an old broke down ford truck, that on occasion I can get fired up and get a few things done, but more often than not, I really dont have the gas to even stand up, being #disabled and living in #poverty Fucking Sucks! you cant afford to eat when your hungry, you cant afford to take care of your health, you cant afford anything a person needs in life, Poverty Fucking Sucks, but when Your Disabled, it Fucking Blows, and every little thing is compounded a 1000 times and no one really cares to help you. I have so many unseen issues, most don’t realize the true difficulty I endure each day, first I don’t sleep well, for many reasons, from a brain that is constantly in overdrive, to relentless nightmares, to being in constant pain, to not having a decent supportive bed to sleep on, so my days start of painful, tired and overwhelmed before I even get going, Often I go hungry because living in #poverty I simply can not afford #food to eat, I typically only get around 600-800 calories a day when a man my size and age should be getting around 3000 calories a day, as a result despite my appearance I suffer from malnutrition, I have a great deal of difficulty cleaning my tiny cave, from not being able to afford the basics to have cleaning supplies to being physically limited in my ability to do so, I cant hardly bend over, nor can I very easily get up and down off the floor, taking a shower can simply become a serious challenge, and often leaves my exhausted not to mention I cant often afford the basics for personal hygiene, simply washing a dish or standing at the stove at times can be brutal on my back, then there are chores I need to tend to as part of my rent, and those absolutely can be a painful and exhaustive event for me, and those around often don’t even realize and expect more as a result, and if I say I have had enough today, I am questioned, because they assume I did what I did with ease, but they have no idea of the pain and struggle I had to endure to deal with to accomplish the tasks at hand, reading has become trouble some, as world become very blurry and melt together, writing is becoming increasingly difficult, as finding the words is getting harder and harder, being creative used to help but I have been in so much pain, and under so much stress that I often cant even muster up the energy to attempt to be creative, not to mention my camera is failing, my laptop is struggling, and again no money to obtain what I actually need, I have no #healthcare because the laws people pass have really messed that up, and after years fighting to get it resolved I have given up, so I fight through each day to just to suffer the next, I reach out constantly for financial support yet receive nearly nothing compared to what I actually need, this #disable man exists in #poverty, constant pain and my #anxiety exacerbates my #ptsd, my #bipolar cycles, and several other issues, my blood pressure has been all over the place and frankly in a rather obscenely high range for to long, my core body temp has been far lower than the average, while I often feel as though I am on fire, things get darker with my sight each day, and yet to bright, I hear and see so much that is not actually there, so very much wrong and no support nor help to be found, it would really truly help if people could and would help me #fundriase the money I need each day to live, and the money I need to set up a life where I can take care of myself and lessen the effects of poverty and disability on an aging body and mind.
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Anoxinon e.V. 
MUTUAL AID POST 5/120 
325 Hotel Past Due
